1. 03:49 26th May 2012

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    And every demon wants his pound of flesh
    But I like to keep some things to myself
    I like to keep my issues drawn
    It’s always darkest before the dawn
    And I’ve been a fool, and I’ve been blind
    I can never leave the past behind
    I can see no way, I can see no way
    I’m always dragging that horse around
    All of his questions, such a mournful sound
    Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
    ‘Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
    It’s always darkest before the dawn
    Shake it out…
    …It’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
    So shake him off
    And I am done with my graceless heart
    So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
    ‘Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
    It’s always darkest before the dawn
    — Florence and the Machine, “Shake it Out”
     
  2. Keep on dreaming, even if it breaks your heart.
    — Eli Young Band
     
  3. Most common conversation in my life:

    Boyfriend: “You’re looking at me like I’m insane.”
    Me: “This is just how I look at you.” 

     
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  5. 11:23

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    Don’t ask what the world needs. Find out what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.
    — I can’t remember where I got this or if I’ve posted it before, but this is what’s in my head today.
     
  6. 12:33 5th May 2012

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    …But that’s just the trouble with me. I give myself very good advice, but I very seldom follow it.
    — Alice in Wonderland
     
  7. 11:01

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    Quit.

    I quit my job yesterday.

    After 3 whole weeks.

    Here’s why:

    I was hired as a school age lead teacher. But EVERY DAY that I was there, I spent more time in the preschool class than with the school age kids. At first, it was ok, because I was getting some hours- the school age kids aren’t there all day, so it made sense.

    Then my boss moved the preschool lead teacher to the school age building, and put me in her class BY MYSELF all afternoon.

    I wasn’t supposed to be in a room by myself- my CPR/First Aid had expired, and she never set me up to renew it.

    Additionally, she only made the schedule one day in advance, and often did it at night, so she had to call/text everyone their hours.

    It was a chaotic nightmare.

    When I went in to work Thursday, I asked my boss if I could to her. We sat down in her office, and I very flatly said, “I can’t work with preschool anymore. I was hired as a school age teacher, that’s the age group I like, and I just can’t handle kids that young all day.”

    Her response: “It’s only one day.”

    I reiterated, “I can’t handle preschool. I can’t.”

    She replied, “If you can’t handle that group, then I don’t know why you’re in childcare. I honestly don’t.”

    Um. Excuse me?

    I was too stunned to actually say anything- though I ended up not working with preschool that day.

    I tried to address the schedule issue, by telling her that it was chaotic- in addition to not doing to schedule in advance, she never actually covered all the rooms, so breaks always had to be adjusted.

    Her response to that was, “this isn’t chaotic, it’s just how childcare works.”

    She forgets that I’ve worked at another daycare. For all its flaws, the director knew how to make a schedule.

    Anyway. I quit, and I filed a report on her because her responses and her behavior were horrid. She crossed a line.

     
  8. Long stories short…

    I was hit, kicked, bitten and spit on (spat on? I’m never sure what the proper grammar is…) within the first hour of work today. All by one child. He broke the skin THROUGH MY PANTS when he bit my calf.

    Then I decided to go to the grocery store, and turned my wheel rather sharply when backing out of my driveway, to avoid hitting the child riding her scooter in the street… and backed into my brother’s girlfriend’s car. I shattered her tail light and scratched my precious Volvomort. :(

     
  9. The First Week of Work Was Probably the Unhealthiest of my Life.

    No joke.

    I think I ate fast food for lunch every day- ew. I hate spending money on it, and I hate how awful I feel when I remember how much fast food I’ve had.

    So I’m starting this week off right- I just made Monday’s lunch! And I bought some fruit-filled cookie bar things for breakfast, so the drive-thru won’t tempt me then, either.

    Tomorrow, it’s crab salad for lunch- crab meat, mayo (with olive oil- we happened to have it, it has way less fat than regular mayo, and I actually like it better), celery and green bell pepper. That’s it. Served over lettuce. I sliced up some extra celery to eat with hummus, too. Always good to have a snack, just in case. :) And I just don’t like to spend time cooking, so things like this that I can throw together are perfect.

    Also, I discovered a website I’m in love with, because it works for my lactose intolerance: milkfreemom.com

     
  10. Bandwagon.

    I’ve jumped on the salad-in-a-jar bandwagon.

    Well… sort of.

    It wasn’t technically in a jar, because I’m not allowed to have glass containers at work (it was layered in a tall, narrow plastic container), and I didn’t use any sort of guidelines/recipe.

    All I knew for sure was that the lettuce should be far away from the dressing, and I wanted to use avocado (which is so hard to keep fresh!). I layered it in the following order, from bottom to top: Avocado (I mashed it like I would if I were making guacamole, but didn’t add anything to it); Lime juice (to keep the avocado fresh… and to serve as my “dressing”); Onion (supposedly it also helps the avocado stay fresh); olives; romaine lettuce.

    I poured it onto a plate to eat, and ended up just mixing everything except the lettuce in with the avocado- like guacamole! It was good, my avocado stayed fresh, but it was missing something. Next time, I’m adding a protein- maybe black beans and/or grilled chicken. I recommend it- great way to take salad for lunch!